Wednesday
Rev has finally decided that he can use the back couch. It’s real cute. When he walks on the riser his head is at lower couch people head height which he likes a lot, particularly for tug. And then he lays on the back couch and stares at us with his chin down. I’m so happy he’s comfortable in the theater room.
Not going to the office today. The perf bug dupe seems to be holding so I might actually get to an SR for the first time in 2 weeks. I’ve got to go in tomorrow for a couple of hours, but hopefully for the last time this week, and I should be able to have chicken and a haircut while I’m out.
Shanda is getting sick, which is often hard for her. She wants to pretend it’s not happening, but of course that only makes it worse. She imagines illness as some sort of moral failing, like getting a cold signals to the world the supposed secret that she isn’t perfect. As if perfect were a thing anyone wanted her to be in the first place.
Talked with DerbyK about bodily autonomy and the power of persistence over fear. They proposed that I might /want/ to value a symbol, which is quite possibly true but not frequently part of my denial-based self-model. And a bit about one of the punishing ways that sex interacts the patriarchy.
Dog class again. More humping, but today there was another big dog to distract him a bit. He had a lot more trouble with being anxious though – barking and whining and unfocused and unable to sit still. And he doesn’t like his kangaroo food enough to use as treats, so he was difficult to motivate.
Can I use consulting contracts to get the sort of control I want over my work? If I did short-term things I wouldn’t have to get bogged down in meaningless annual goals or vesting schedules, and I could pick my projects a bit. Maybe even something that gets me a CA work permit. But I’d probably have to show up in an office frequently, and/or travel. I liked working for myself but I don’t know where to find enough work to make that viable, at least not before I run out of rent money. The Linux Foundation recruited me once; a less capitalist version of work does sound appealing. Maybe just a job where I get hired by startup boards to tell their dev teams “no” until they have a viable plan for releasing something, or by liability insurance companies to do the same sort of thing for security?
ZiB
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