Today

Today went better. It was still plenty busy but I feel like I made progress on the accumulated stress level. Got help with my bug test ¹error in the test, as expected, dealt with Melissa’s insurance ²i.e. paid for it again and pretended like talking to her about paying the bill or signing up for Medicaid would make her do anything and my utility bills ³which I apparently missed this month. Saw Shanda for 20 minutes ⁴because we scheduled ahead for a break, went to the office ⁵and got to ride with Shanda for a few minutes of public time. Got my bug tested and into review ⁶still need another ship-it but I’m close to done, closed 3 of 4 SRs ⁷though the last is by far the hardest, made my boss calmer ⁸both by getting the bug out and by acknowledging his anxiety. Did my harassment training ⁹and paused in the middle to lodge a complaint with the head of HR. The training is designed to be technically compliant with the law and to manage risk, but also to disclaim responsibility by asking individuals to do the duty of the organization by themselves. And of course with no regard for the victims, only the company. So I suggested better … Continue reading. Joined a gym after confirming ahead of time that E could join ¹⁰I have an email about how 17 was fine and how I’d need a court order if we didn’t have the right patriarcal relationship. Un-joined a gym 4 minutes later when they decided he couldn’t ¹¹required proof of the patriarchal relationship despite this not really being a thing the state issues. In had considered faking up such a document anyway – I could just change the name on one of my CASA orders or somesuch. But E is hardly up for the lie (though maybe someday I’ll teach them) let alone fraud. I honestly didn’t … Continue reading. Had some food and a sugary drink while I talked to E ¹²mostly complained about insurance and food trauma, while he said nice things to me that most people are polite enough to not force me to notice instead of gyming. Went home, talked about Shanda’s feels for a second ¹³about how she did sharing and got lots of good feedback and other supportive interactions. About stress over an interaction yet to come, shared my interaction thus far with the high school contact from yesterday ¹⁴who needs a name, so let’s go with Cookiez. They continued to be real high on the compliments and low on sharing, but I’ve decided it’s not a hack account trying to sell me porn. Shanda thinks it might be a Church sale, but I only read religion and not Church. And I can deal with individual religion – given an engaged … Continue reading. Did some laundry ¹⁵Shanda has decided to clear her backlog at the rate of 10 minutes per day, so there are baskets to be had again, had 22 minutes of TV ¹⁶Miracle Workers from TBS maybe? It’s a show about how God is a dick and the people who work for Him need to take over to keep the world from ending, and also anxiety and making mistakes, and walked with Dog ¹⁷who was all over the place. While we were out I chatted with Shanda about her boss’s anxiety and how it’s nice to be able to see it as not about you but still hard to be the target of. This is a situation that comes up a lot that it’s easy to feel bad about – other people being anxious at you. Even deciding its about you … Continue reading. Promised to help Shanda with her earring ¹⁸She’s finally going back to normal earrings after some irritation and wants help with the first insertion. She’s been wearing a tapered gauging hoop with solid, ground ends. No sharp edges anywhere. If you ever have trouble getting jewelry in an irritated or undersized piercing, you want one (in your size obviously): … Continue reading but failed to do so. Played a couple of @BPS ¹⁹to help Shanda be less hard on herself, and to admire @BPS custom clothing and a couple of @AvE ²⁰who had a family episode that made us happy and a voiceless process video as we went to bed. Did not get any wood dying done ²¹but feeling okay about it and did not close my backport bug ²²and feeling a little worried about it. Did not take poop to the vet ²³but have new plans for tomorrow. Didn’t collect any pictures or stories or think for even a minute about what to share ²⁴hence this weird The Screed. Didn’t think about yesterday’s therapy ²⁵though I did work a bit on my homework. But still, closer to swimming that yesterday. And maybe tomorrow ²⁶robots tomorrow, which I’m excited to get back to, and hopefully see some people will be better still.