Monday

Accomplished work. Even the noon meeting. In person. Didn’t get ahead on anything but at least kept up with the new bits, and got through all of the approvals for later this week. Still stalled out on perf bug diagnosis, but I got a test environment up so maybe I can actually work on it tomorrow. Of course I’ve been outright ignoring SRs for a week so I’ll have to hit those sometime, but that’s a problem for Thursday me.

Still feeling a bit crap; almost hypoxic, like when I’ve got chronic lung nonsense happening. But it’s not that – I’m mostly cured since I made the changes that brought me to Seattle – so I’m probably just getting sick. Sick is hard for me in disgusting trauma ways. And in anxiety ways. And in normal sick ways. And it’s hard for Shanda to help me with.

Accomplished poison. Ants have been a bit of a problem with dog – he wanted to hide food toys – and it’s time for some chemical warfare to go with our behavior changes*.

Talked to Shanda about how it’s hard to watch B have a hard time. About how patience and availability and promotion of sharing and self-care are the things you can do to help. About prioritizing your own care enough to be able to provide those. And about how hard it is to wait for those things to be useful. I’m not happy Shanda has this feeling, but I am happy that she can share it. That has not always been true, and it’s a not uncommon in my life.

Skipped robots. I haven’t decide how frequently I want to go in the early season. Or how much I can be bothered to ride the bus. I might be able to go directly from the office on Mondays, and cut the bus time down a bit. Or maybe I can charge robot travel against the F5 grant and take a car; I can’t get them to reliably pay for anything useful, and the people who usually submit taxi receipts to F5 would consider the E line too dangerous for company travel (even if they weren’t racist***).

Canada ended their buy-a-passport program. Just when I finally had a plan to exploit it to get Ben into the country (with backing from a 1%er). But they have made other parts of the process easier, including reducing the time requirement as a PR to 3 years. But I’m not sure how to get Ben in if he has to apply in a process with a medical requirement.

ZiB

*Except rewritten** into something that makes a better analogy to pharmaceutical mental health treatment.

**The Screed does not get rewrites. But it also doesn’t forbid repetition.

***F5 recently fired a VP after he reply-all’d an explicitly racial complaint about adding MLK day to the company calendar. Because if you fire the idiot who said it out loud the rest of the racism in the company doesn’t matter, I guess.

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