Insurance

The fact that your concern about insurance hurts people – that it hurt us – is the problem with insurance.

That’s not a problem with our specific relationship, but it is an issue that your profession is actively enabling. The fact that you talk about it with each other but don’t have organized support about it makes it seem pretty hopeless, or at least like therapists are collectively incapable of helping with it.

I feel very vulnerable during the time between when you think I have plotted to manipulate you and the time when you realize that’s a feeling about insurance audits. During that period I’m not merely vulnerable in our relationship I’m also vulnerable to all of the things that threaten you in your life.

I am confident that eventually you will act to protect me, if you can figure out how.

I am worried that in the inteirm you will have seek “help” in a way that’s about how you need help, not about how I need help. I am worried that you will not be in a condition to protect me while this “help” happens.

I am worried you will accept “help” from an authority and that “help” will leak onto me. It’s not a question of your intent or motives, it’s just what you’ve been trained to do when you feel overwhelmed. And you’re always overwhelmed. That’s how the system works.

ZiB

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Sent from a phone.

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