We did recover, Shanda and I, from the bad times yesterday. We agreed there were places she could have taken the control she felt was lacking, and that it was possible to talk about such things without so much desperation on either side. We also got to talk more about the ways Shanda wants to understand her relationships, romantic and otherwise. I’ve never been as attached to externally defined roles as she has been, so while polyamory feels like the default to me it’s still sometimes an impedance mismatch when we’re talking about how the whole thing is shaped – I feel like she isn’t always careful about the difference…

It’s been one week1Two weeks in fact, but only one in Canada, which is all the excuse I need for a @BNL reference. Apple put it on an OS installer CD without any such excuse, so my usage feels pretty safe. since you looked at me, cocked your head to the side and said you were defrauding your employer as part of a plan to visit me. Is that actually happening or has your scheme been foiled by implacable corporate processes? Turns out Dave’s not coming, but I didn’t know that this morning and I’m not gonna let it dissuade me from my already composed text. I’m am disappointed though.…

I’m back in tacos today, which is a nice way to start the week. And upon arriving at the office I found a new food truck [fig 1]. While the humble hog may not be as versatile a fruit as the noble taco I am very happy to have had a cuban, and to have possibly started a new food truck relationship. Tomorrow there might be fried chicken, which is enough reason to go in for an hour, and if I go into the office two days in a row I don’t have to go on the third**. So everything is coming up Milhouse. I’m gonna take this first day…

Last lazy day. I’m reluctant to go back to work tomorrow but I’ve arranged to only have a 3 day week before another long weekend and 4 day week after that, so I can ease myself back toward the idea of being employed under late stage capitalism. Shanda’s alrest back to work today but I took an extra day to make the calendar better. In any case, I’ve arranged for a restful and enjoyable last day today, with fairly good results. Got the package compiled, compressed, and shipped. I almost told a different story here but I liked the version where I was done better, so I stopped writing and…

Started season 4 of Killjoys. I really love the John-Dutch dynamic**. The series plays as heist/action road show — makes me think of The Adventures of Brisco County Jr., for example. I’m also a big fan of the characters visual esthetic, like when Hannah John-Kamen is about 45% hair by volume or the bartender comes out with a bald head and glitter eyebrows and it’s only moderately ridiculous given his history. Also everyone on the show is pretty even by TV standards. It’s like if a CW show had some interest in storytelling. Shanda has been distracted all day today. And tense. I presume she’s anxious about going back to…

I always wonder what it is US CBP thinks they’re going to find on a passenger train with a with their Geiger counter. Or what they’d do if it clicked. They literally didn’t even get within arm’s reach of my NEXUS card to do the passport control part of their job, but they were sure to wand us all for radioisotopes. Fucking colonialism. Writing rules and procedures for it just makes it more dumb. Found out B is a slob, after they lived in my house for a week. “They are [half]blind” Shanda says in excuse, though she clearly accepts the fact. When things aren’t in their place I have…